I'm not avoiding my 3am pancakes, okay? Sometimes they're necessary. I'm just saying, if you're up, and maybe I'm up... I don't know. It's not as bad when you have a distraction.
( that's not entirely the right word. he just doesn't want to say when you're not alone because somehow that feels not okay, to say to your ex, who still has a boyfriend. so. distraction. that's fine. it's not to make each other less lonely, it's so they can have something else besides nightmares to think about. )
What if it's not that occasional for me? ( because, well, it isn't occasional. it's ... most nights. and not always does he leave the house, or go for pancakes, or jog to Waiting for a Girl Like You. sometimes he does go back to sleep, eventually. but if Nancy wants a check in any time he wakes up when he didn't want to, it's... well it'll be a lot of check ins. that's all. )
Then it ends up being pretty convenient, since it's not that occasional for me either.
[ maybe eventually it'll click that this girl-with-a-boyfriend has been replying back to his texts just as regularly as he's been sending them, and reaching out pretty regularly with texts of her own at any given time of day, too, but maybe he won't. and that's actually fine! because she's not about to point it out, because she's also determined not to think about why she's not texting said boyfriend instead. or why she's not actually with him.
maybe "distraction" isn't totally accurate, but it's not totally wrong, either.
although right now, in the moment? she's not really thinking about it that deeply. all she can seem to think about right now is how fucked up and sad it is that they're all dealing with this thing, and have been dealing with this thing, for years. and it somehow keeps getting heavier and harder to shake, to the point where getting a full night's sleep has become a nearly impossible goal. ]
You can text me anytime, too. I mean, that's what you told me, when I was apologizing for all those dumb texts I sent you? But I just realized I never actually said it back, so... Yeah. I mean it. Anytime.
( hey, for sure Steve has noticed this girl with a boyfriend has been texting him back and texting him of her own volition lately. it would be hard for him to text back if he didn't! but they're working on being friends again, right? friends talk. friends talk more than just when the world might be ending or the stakes are so high they have to.
they talk about the new movies just in to Family Video, they talk about sleepy snuggly storytime with Holly, they ... talk about sleepless nights and slightly dangerous running routines and eating breakfast foods at strange hours.
Nancy didn't have to tell him he can text her any time, they've already sort of just started doing it. still, a nice warm fuzzy feeling that she said it out loud anyway. )
Okay, Nance. Anytime. Including before night jogs and 3am pancakes. I can do that.
My ice is half melted already, though, I'm gonna go scrounge for a bag of peas or something. I'll talk to you later? Hopefully not at 3am, but maybe at 3am.
And anytime you need the reminder not to punch some jerk that isn't worth your time, too, don't forget. Or... maybe just try to stay out of trouble, in general? For the next couple of days, at least, until Holly finishes your bracelet.
Oh! Yeah, of course. I'll be here. Even at 3am. Good luck on your frozen veggies hunt.
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Date: 2022-08-01 05:36 am (UTC)I'm just saying, if you're up, and maybe I'm up... I don't know. It's not as bad when you have a distraction.
( that's not entirely the right word. he just doesn't want to say when you're not alone because somehow that feels not okay, to say to your ex, who still has a boyfriend. so. distraction. that's fine. it's not to make each other less lonely, it's so they can have something else besides nightmares to think about. )
What if it's not that occasional for me? ( because, well, it isn't occasional. it's ... most nights. and not always does he leave the house, or go for pancakes, or jog to Waiting for a Girl Like You. sometimes he does go back to sleep, eventually. but if Nancy wants a check in any time he wakes up when he didn't want to, it's... well it'll be a lot of check ins. that's all. )
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Date: 2022-08-01 06:04 am (UTC)[ maybe eventually it'll click that this girl-with-a-boyfriend has been replying back to his texts just as regularly as he's been sending them, and reaching out pretty regularly with texts of her own at any given time of day, too, but maybe he won't. and that's actually fine! because she's not about to point it out, because she's also determined not to think about why she's not texting said boyfriend instead. or why she's not actually with him.
maybe "distraction" isn't totally accurate, but it's not totally wrong, either.
although right now, in the moment? she's not really thinking about it that deeply. all she can seem to think about right now is how fucked up and sad it is that they're all dealing with this thing, and have been dealing with this thing, for years. and it somehow keeps getting heavier and harder to shake, to the point where getting a full night's sleep has become a nearly impossible goal. ]
You can text me anytime, too. I mean, that's what you told me, when I was apologizing for all those dumb texts I sent you? But I just realized I never actually said it back, so... Yeah.
I mean it. Anytime.
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Date: 2022-08-02 07:20 pm (UTC)they talk about the new movies just in to Family Video, they talk about sleepy snuggly storytime with Holly, they ... talk about sleepless nights and slightly dangerous running routines and eating breakfast foods at strange hours.
Nancy didn't have to tell him he can text her any time, they've already sort of just started doing it. still, a nice warm fuzzy feeling that she said it out loud anyway. )
Okay, Nance. Anytime. Including before night jogs and 3am pancakes. I can do that.
My ice is half melted already, though, I'm gonna go scrounge for a bag of peas or something. I'll talk to you later?
Hopefully not at 3am, but maybe at 3am.
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Date: 2022-08-02 11:41 pm (UTC)Or... maybe just try to stay out of trouble, in general? For the next couple of days, at least, until Holly finishes your bracelet.
Oh! Yeah, of course. I'll be here. Even at 3am.
Good luck on your frozen veggies hunt.
[ wtf? who says that??? cool kids do, obviously. ugh. whatever. whateeeeeeeeever. ]